INTEGRATION AND THE RETURN HOME

For the last two days I have been sharing a room with Liz and Elizabeth at the Rio Shilcayo hotel in Tarapoto. I've barely left the hotel room I feel so sensitive. Yesterday my left hip went into a severe cramp and I had to lie down for most of the day. A massage therapist came to our room. She did a combination of polarity, reflexology, energy work and structural realignment. Turns out she's a curandera! She was so skilled. After she worked on me I felt tingly all over and very high. She had opened up and realigned my energy channels and the Sanango was flowing again quite strongly. She advised that I take a salt bath, which I did. An hour later my muscles began releasing. Today I am almost 100% better.

I was so impressed by her healing work I called her to come in today to work on Liz and Elizabeth. An hour with her is the perfect compliment and completion to Don Guillermo's medicine work. I still need to find out her name.

This evening we are meeting Jeni and Eda for shopping and dinner. This will be our first time shopping in Peru. I'm looking forward to it! 

Oh yes, and the macaw, Coco, went in for his wing operation this morning. Send him your blessings for a healthy and full recovery.

We will be arriving home from airport on January 17th, in the morning. 

I will not be available for one week after my return as I will be focusing on nurturing myself as I enter back into the busy world of the Bay Area. Tarapoto is a very different world - slower, more organic and intuitive, more natural. I've gotten used to it and deeply appreciate the pace. The Sanango medicine will be working within me for months to come. It is a priority for me to continue my healing with Sanango with no distractions. I will contact friends and family when I am ready. Thank you for holding me while I've been on this Medicine Journey. Thank you for honoring my request. Everything is unfolding in the Universe according to whether our energy channels are open or blocked. This is what I've learned. It is my intention to remain open. To share with people how to open and remain open. When we're open, the world looks and feels so vastly different! 

This pilgrimage has gone beyond all expectations. If someone would have told me how nauseous, hungry and sleep deprived I would be on this trip, I may not have gone. But now, on the other side, I understand that these sacrifices we made were for our healing and they are the sacrifices everyone makes who devotes themselves to real and sustaining growth in their lives. This was a true Rites of Passage. I feel changed in ways I didn't know I could be. I am living every day in the present moment, without trying, because to experience myself in any other way feels depleting. My senses are so alive, I can feel the energy dynamics between people as clear as the clearest quartz crystal. And in myself as well. I cannot tell a lie without feeling sick. I cannot act or perform a personality that is not aligned with my true nature without getting extremely uncomfortable. It's as if Sanango is within me holding me in integrity. I have never experienced this state of being so profoundly before. I am so deeply grateful! May I have the courage to devote myself to this as my new, rebirthed  Self.

I am sending love from the Amazon. I am sending love from Madre Ayahuasca. I am sending love from Sanango. And most of all I send you all love from the depths of my heart. 

Mitakuye Oyasin.

Maria Gutierrez